Y Sunday, September 30, 2007
马善被人骑，人善被人欺... 人不为己，天诛地灭...
看来我再也不能保持着“人人为我，我为人人”的心态了... 虽然我不是每一次都很赞同你所说的东西，但是有时你说得真是很对...
我在好几年前曾说过类似的话，每当你对一个人好的时候，你是不是该停下脚步，想一想，我将要做的，值得吗？你能无条件的付出，那你会有所收获吗？你处处为那人着想，担心这个，担心那个的，他会领情吗？还是他只会利用你的这份真心诚意来得到他所要的目的？有时真的不要想太多... 就跟着直觉走好了... 最重要的，坚持你自己的立场，要学会保护自己，不要那么容易被三言两语而动摇... 我不想再做好人了，凡是还是要自私一点... 好累，好累啊... =(
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"You can't put it off any longer -- now is definitely the time to clear your desk of all that pesky paperwork or to write that email that should have been sent weeks ago. You'll feel eleven times better afterward. "
That's my horoscope reading for saturday... So accurate... Haha...
Y Friday, September 28, 2007
Die die die... The one week recess week is coming to an end but i've not been very productive at all... Haha... Yet to start on my 1500 words CME essay, PBL slides and my stupid reflections... Haiz.. Never ending work...
Really going to stop drama teaching next year... Really need my weekends, be it to to rest or catch up with work and everyone else... Getting stressed up soon...
Y Thursday, September 20, 2007
Okie, maybe i over reacted then... But at that point, i couldn't really think of anything but all the things she had done and said... Thinking back, maybe what they're doing is right, preparing/bringing me into the real world but not in this manner... Haiz... But thank you to dear who called and those darlings...
Sometimes i just want to escape to a place whereby i can seek solace and forget about what is happening around me, be it family, responsibilities, school, work... Or maybe just somewhere with dear and close friends... Was thinking why am i so down on my luck and getting so emotionally unstable this past month and a friend told me this: perhaps it's because of my feng shui, cuz it's so near the sea and everyday the waves just come and go, just like the tears that will keep churning and rolling down... Haha... Sounds true yea... =p
Y Monday, September 17, 2007
Hate it, the tears just can't stop flowing down... Tears of frustration, stress, disappointment, tiredness... I don't wanna stay at home anymore... Cried till i'm trembling now... Feeling numb... It's been so long that i'm crying till like that...
It's good to go home immediately and sit in front of the window looking at the magnificent scenery outside, you might just forget all unhappiness by just looking out... But no, i just don't want to go home, i just wanna run away, run away from all the stupid responsibilities that are added to me... What i'm an adult now, should help to share some burdens... I know, but i just don't like the way it is expected of me... So what if you have the money... You call the shots yea... It's not like i've not done anything...
School's another problem, assignments, projects, everything, they're endless... I'm not idling away you know... I might seem to be very free, everyday either hearing me going out with who, staying out, blah blah... Hello, i'm not having my fun okie... I know i won't be able to study at home, so out i stayed, studying till late... Instead of thinking wow, she's really trying to put in more effort, she chose to doubt me... Hate it when i'm being accused...
Drama's the next frustrating factor... I want my life back... The students are not helping me... The schedule's not helping me either... I really can't stand it anymore... Yea, who knows, i might need to see a psychologist sooner or later...
Damn it, just can't stop trembling and crying... Argh...
Y Thursday, September 13, 2007
Realised i forgot to update you people on my fines.. Haha... Remember the post that i talked about not having the cash card? It was a friday, 24th aug, paid $9.50 for it... And on the following monday, 27th, while driving to Esplanade for the rehearsal/performance, maybe my speed was really slightly too fast, received a call from my aunt one week later that i got a ticket for speeding... The speed limit was 7okm/h but my speed exceeded by 21-30km/h thus got a fine of $150 and 6 demerit points... =( Wrote an appeal letter, hopefully they'll give me another chance and cut down on the money and points... =x
Was asking my dad when will i have a full 24 points again cuz for the first year the maximum points given is only 12... So he said, i have to keep a clear record for the next one year counting from the day of the offence... Oh my goodness... So friends, if you got the chance to take my car, please bear with the speed i'll be going... It's going to be from 70-90km is what i'll be driving, 100km the most... Haha... Oh well...
It's thursday again... Tomorrow no school... Haha... Shall go to the gym, gotta start running... Then over to dear's place, he's going to show me the necklace, can't wait... After that jie jie is going to fetch di di to school... Lol...
Y Monday, September 10, 2007
Ok, this peculiar game has been going on for some time and it kinda reached me. Since I've been tagged by Julia, my dear jie mei, I shall comply to try to complete this. Haha...
Instructions: Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird habits or little known things about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird or little known facts about yourself as well as state this rules clearly. At the end, you must choose 6 people to tag and list their names.
Oh no, don't think i have ten wierd habits... Haha...
1. Mixed personality... Haha... I can stand my room being messy but once i were to start packing, i'll make sure it's going to get very neat and tidy... And i can't stand untidy stuff, eg, things getting out of place, drippings of sauces everywhere, even on public tables, i'll make sure i'll wipe them clean too... Lol...
2. When eatting, i like to arrange my food neatly side by side and slowly eat in sequence... Haha... Maybe that explains why i'm such a slow eater...
3. Whenever i get my dizzy spells, i'll tilt my head slightly towards the right the whole time and it helps! Haha...
4. I'll arrange everything in my bag neatly and make sure thay stay the same even when i'm walking... So if i were to open and see it messed up, i'll re-arrange it rightaway... Hee... And also arranging my stationery and books neatly on the table during studying as well as exam time... Stationery needed will be infront of the pencil case at the far end centre of table, water on the top left/right hand corner, books on the other side... Haha...
5. I always fall asleep with my blanket covering my legs no matter warm or cold... Haha... I can kick it away in the middle of the night but it's just a sense of security that my legs are covered at the point of time before i drift off to lala land...
6. I have a fetish for collar-bones!! Haha... Just like looking at them... =)
7. My 6th sense is quite strong but despite knowing this fact, i always choose to go against it and do some other stupid things... Always telling myself that i'll learn from the mistakes but oh well, history always repeats... =( Just like what the bf always say, i think too much at the wrong time...
8. I used to keep a diary of events during my poly life and i'll take them out occasionally to look at the things that i've recorded but has since threw them away while packing for house-moving a few weeks back... They're all past memories now...
Hmmm... Suppose there are still more wierd things about me that i can't remember for the time being... Haha... So for those who are reading and know about more wierd habits of mine feel free to tag them out... Lol... And now, the chosen 6 who will have to blog out their wierd habits are, Valencia, Shi Yun, Jin Xuan, Marcus (if you still read blogs... haha...), Zi Dan and Ying Jie... =)
Lots of things happened for the past week that i didn't blog... Moved house on the 3rd, thank you so much to Julia who came to help out... Managed to unpack everything in two days... Haha... Dear and Julia stayed over on tues, preparing for Shi Yun's big day on the 5th... Everything turned out quite well actually... We had fun!! Haha... Didn't do our QnA but played Cluedo and Twister instead... Julia, Cher Hao, John, Dear and i were practically twisted in a big mess... Lol... Poor Shi Yun couldn't play due to some reason but she had fun spinning for the first few rounds... Ha... Please refer to Julia's blog for the photos... Hee... Bdae girl and bf left around 2 plus so left the four of us... Didn't really sleep so after driving CH to camp the next day, the three of us practically slept like pigs after reaching home around 9... Only woke around 5 plus... Haha...
No internet, so couldn't do my e-learning stuff until sunday... Dead... Went over to dear's place and bi men to bia till took mc today... Kept having headaches and dizzy spells... Doc said it's a combination between migraine and tension headaches... Ooo... Haha...
My darling is a pig... Haha... Com, sleep, eat... =p
*wo shi bei dong de*