Yes, i really need to grow up.. I really need to get to know more things, get in touch with more people, more things that are happening around me.. Being someone who has never gone through much hardships/problems/big shit, i'm really really very lucky, and i thank god for that.. I lack the experience, the ability to see things, feel things, sense things, understand things.. Yes, i am at times very stupid and bobo and insensitive in these aspects.. I often spout things out without thinking, at that spur of the moment.. I'm very sorry to each and everyone of my friends, family, due to my inconsideration/spontaneous moments, should i have hurt anyone of you.. I often regret after saying it out loud, never totally learn my lesson, even though i know i'm wrong, sometimes i just couldn't control (that's more of an excuse), it's just i never make it a point to register.. Every time when i think things through, i know what went wrong, for a few months i'll make it a point to take note.. But it just wouldn't sustain.. It shouldn't be like this Xi.. You know just how freaking well it went and it will go.. You just didn't make it a point to engrave it deep enough.. Why still bother doing things that you know will cause unhappiness, you know you're able to stop it, why did you still let it out.. Please, grow up and out..
Friends, friends, friends.. Friends come and go, friends come and stay, friends come and stayed and go, friends come and stayed and went off and still comes back.. People change, i change.. Just accept them for who they are, and bless them with all your love just as they do so to you.. No one is perfect.. I definitely am not perfect but i promise i will do my very best..
This shall be my new start, my new perspective.. I want to become a better person, i really want to..